Drive Through

Babel, The Last Kiss.
"So is that all that happens?"
I don't understand why our culture needs action
It's precisely those kinds of movies that have the highest potential
to make people think and challenge their beliefs in the moments of silence and awkwardness they incite.
and we want better endings
we want twists
and drama
we don't want reality
unless it's not really real, unless we can vote with texts on the endings.
we are so impatient
so selfish
so simple
so decisive
and it makes me so disappointed.
it makes me want to stand up
and tell people to shut up and listen
or watch
or
to just keep running their mouths
as if no one were listening,
until they started saying things they truly believed.
then I'd be satisfied.
because it's all bullshit
and because I can't even enjoy a movie about pain anymore
I'm better off watching the news
wham bam thank you ma'am
crisis in the middle east
death in japan
terrorism
thank you, that was quite a show.
I'm glad I know the ending
fuck
that's why it's scary writing poetry
it's scary speaking my mind
it's scary to be quiet too
because it's just not big enough.
fuck

So Clever With Things

I mean too much to myself now.
I cannot compromise those beautifully unique things about myself
to satisfy even a lover who will share my heart.
And please, if you know and love me,
don't praise me for the sake of praising.
It exhausts me to give thanks for the sake of the gesture.
Just shower me with kindess,
genuine acts and words of your appreciation
with no agenda for cordiality.
I am not stuck in my ways,
oblivious to a changing world
and my dynamic nature.
I challenge you to help me grow into new desires,
out of bad habits.
I will change with you,
but I will never leave my deepest person behind.
I pray that you discover
that intimate part of me
and that you embrace it tighter than I ever could,
love it more deeply than I know how.
I am delightful, I know that to be true.
I hope you understand
that this deliberation is not an aim of conceit.
I just recently discovered my worth
and I hope you burn to take me on.
I am sufficient.
I am more than enough for any man.
I will love you more than any woman can.
I just ask that you respect and adore the creation I have become.
I am an entirely wonderful creation
ready with love for you.